I Detest the 1.39 Billion Budget Cut

I wanted to go with the people on strike earlier but none of my classes were canceled. Okay I know it’s not a valid reason but it was hard to choose between to things which are both right. I am in UP to study, first and foremost. My parents and the Filipino people are working hard to pay for my education it is thus my duty to them to attend classes and learn so that someday I may offer good service to my country. I hope this justifies why I didn’t stand up for what I believed in. To somehow make up for my lack of contribution to the university-wide protest against the budget cut I wrote. Yes, I still believe in the power of words - I once dreamed to change the world with words:

Last year the UP system requested for a budget of about 13 billion; only 8 billion was granted. The several-billion-gap between the needed and the allocated funds for the past few years has forced the univesity to increase the tuition and other fees by 300%. The same has led UP to take a few, hesitant steps towards commercialization; A land area of UP along the Commonwealth avenue was leased to the Ayala Land Inc. for 25 years for P6 billion. If this was what led President Aquino to assume that UP could stand on its own he has to look more closely. If UP were to indeed stand on its own it would have to use the students as life source. There has been word going around that tuition fee might go up to P100,000.00 per sem for bracket A students, this is even higher than the tuition fee in Ateneo. I only pay 14 to 16 thousand per sem and yet my parents already have a hard time paying this amount; this sem I had to apply for a late payment permit - not everybody’s as rich as most politicians in our government. Less and less UPCAT passers go on to study in UP, less people are taking the UPCAT and if this goes on UP might lose its claim on Matatapang and Matatalino as the deserving poor give up their slots for the less deserving rich people who tend to not care so much about tuition fee increases as they could easily afford to pay. When I was a freshman I heard a phone conversation of the college student affairs secretary as I was submitting my HS certification. A co-freshman from the College of Science dropped out because they couldn’t afford the tuition fee. The state, by allocating meager funds for public university is depriving many great minds of the right and privilege to good education and by doing so it is also depriving itself of a potential skilled and highly intellectual work force.

President Roman amidst criticism from students tried to justify the tuition and other fees increase by saying that despite the 300% tuition fee increase what the students pay for do not amount to the services they receive and the quality of education they enjoy. It is true. Our teachers are foremost in their fields, my professors in Biology are world-renowned botanists, graduates from top universities. They could apply to any high-paying private school and they’d easily be accepted. Miss Kathleen Aquino who was my Kasaysayan1 professor told us she could buy a car by saving her 3-month salary from La Salle, yet she came back to teach in UP because she was challenged by the intellectual prowess of the students, because she said, here she marveled at and learned a lot from the ideas of students, because she believed in our greatness and she wanted to be among those who shaped that greatness. And if in UP, money started to matter too much too, if the government stopped being generous and the students had to pay an amount equivalent to what they received, then how many great minds would come to waste? Where would the poor but bright youth come to learn?

All great countries have good state universities - Japan, USA, Singapore - the government provides for the educational needs of its people. Shouldn’t the Philippines learn from that? If the government has decided to stop placing their hopes on us then where? Look at us. We are your surest bet

Ita-type ko rin pala

Kung kelan isa nalang, tsaka ayaw ko na. Curly tops lang to; isang subo tapos. Kaso lang ayaw ko na. Ayoko na talaga. Kakaiba ang gabing 'to. Nasusura ako sa mga bagay na karaniwang gustung-gusto ko naman. Una, etong tsokolate, tapos yung internet at kompyuter. Nakatiklop ang laptop ko. Sawang-sawa ako ngayon sa kompyuter, pero halos hindi ko na alam kung pa'no maglibang nang hindi nag pe-facebook, nagta-tumblr, nagi-spider solitaire o kaya nagsi-Sims. Buti nalang pagkabuklat ko ng libro ko sa Plant Systematics saktong may papel. Iba parin pala talaga ang pakiramdam ng pagsusulat sa pagta-type - parang mas makahulugan ang nililikha ko,mas ramdam ang pagtapon ng mga ideya: itim na tinta sa dilaw na espasyo, kay ganda.

Mas ramdam ko rin ang pagkasabik sa pagtunog ng telepono. Minsan nakakaaliw din palang mag-antay, at malungkot. Alam mo kayang inaantay kita? Sana hindi. Para pwede pa akong umasang kung alam mo, hindi mo na ako pagaantayin pa...

Itatapon ko na 'tong tsokalate kasi nilalanggam na.

Not in Love

"Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them"

just read it somewhere. And found it kewl. haha. but i'm not in love. not romantically that is :3

AUXIN

You are dying, here
Now in my bloodied arms
Beneath the light of stars
Your raven hair splayed
Drowning their fragile lights

And I watch with the moon
Your hot crystalline tears
Your ashen face, blue eyes
Infinitely poignant
Under the silver light

You pray that death be swift
Sweet death to end thy grief
Still I stare, part mocking
I hear only our hearts beat
Mine fast, yours faltering

And your hands shaking cold
They betray you and tell
Somehow you fear to die
Graceful, your eyelids fall
The beating grows fainter

I hold your hand at last
I’d stay a little more
You were alone.
And I alone with you for now
I laugh for you. For you

May Perstaym Para sa Lahat ng Bagay

Woot! wala lang. Marunong naman akong mag sorry. Ang kaso nagsosorry lang ako pag kasalanan ko. Siyempre may pride din ako, tsaka never ako nahilig sa panunuyo. Kaya kung nagaantay ka ng sorry, sorry ka walang darating.

What you do unto others, you shouldn't get mad about when done unto you. Diba. Baka kasi masyado ka lang conceited. isip-isip muna konti. O pwede ring baka masyado ka lang nagfifeeling api haha. Basta ayun. Kung galit ka go lang. This is a free country. At kung ako man, di nagagalit for the same things - mga bagay na inis na inis ka pag ginagawa ko sayo pero kung ikaw makagawa ay aba bongga - well siguro prerogative ko na din yun.

Medyo nakakaasar yung dialogue mo kanina a! yung huling bitiw mo ng mga salita...ano nananakot ka? suntukan nalang! hahaha. kaso tagal na akong walang training e. Kaya wag nalang. Gusto ko pag naghamon ako ng suntukan siguradong basag yung mukha na kalaban ko. Tsaka medyo friends din naman tayo, may mga utang na loob din ako sayo. kaya ayun wag nalang. haha. Pero pag bigla mong natripan mag sabi ka lang a hahaha.

Kung sana di lang kita partner sa PE okay na e. kahit mga isang buwang walang imikan...kaso yun lang talaga e. bahala na. baka pag nagkasuntukan mas dumali ang pagbabati haha. Ay hindi, ikaw lang pala yung bati. haha

Edi Ikaw na. Ikaw na ang Bahala

Akala mo ba wala-wala lang yun? Pinagkagastusan ko yun ng neurons. Pinagpaguran yun ng aking hypothalamus. Hay naku. Wag na nga lang kasi. Siguro nga mas okay nang magsabi nalang ako ng isang beses, tapos bahala na sila kung ayaw nilang maniwala. bahala na kung di kapanipaniwala. Bahala nang di na nila kailan man malaman. Ayoko na ngang magpakabait di ata talaga meant e. Nadidisappoint lang ako e. Tapos pa marunong na akong maawa, marunong na akong mabother. This cannot be! No! Signs of weakness to. Kaya buti pa nga ikaw na. Ikaw na ang bahala. Ikaw na ang may korona! o ayan haha. tawa nalang ulit lagi. Pag malungkot na o kaya pagseryosohan na magsosolo nalang ulet ako. Ngayon, o sige tawanan. hahaha.

Salonpas

Grabe nabother naman ako. Pati yung pagpapasalamat ko nakakasakit pala ng ibang tao.
Sorry naman e sa di lang talaga ako magaling mag thank you. Naku kung alam mo lang iniisip ko nun kung pano ako mag te-tenk you. Kasi naman ang totoo natouch talaga ako na binilhan mo ako ng salonpas. Hindi yan sarcastic. Mababaw lang ako pramis. Madaling matawa, magaling magappreciate. Kahit sa mga sobrang simpleng bagay natutuwa. Nagtatanda ng mga quotable quotes ng mga kaibigan haha. Sorry kung "di (mo) naramdaman yung thank you" ko. Kahit ako pakiramdam ko ang insincere nga pakinggan. Ang weird weird pero alam mo bang nalungkot ako sa sinabi mo. E kasi sobrang baliktad e. Ang totoo super sincere yun.Oo alam ko namang di kapanipaniwala kaya sige my bad. Yun ata pinakamagandang bagay na ginawa mo para saken. Ay hindi pala. Yun palang tinetext mo ako at chinicheer habang umiiyak ako sa airport dahil naiwanan ako ng flight ko haha. E ayun nga kaya siguro nakakalungkot kasi tenk you na nga lang maisusukli ko sayo di ko pa magawa ng maayos. Basta tenk you. Sincere to. Peksman